Posted on 26 February 2009 by D' MacKinnon
As I stand here today, on the precipice of the journey back to Colorado I reminisce about the past year. I’m not the same man I was when I moved out here. I think I’m a little less scared, a lot more confident in myself and I feel like I could handle anything. I definitely walk and talk a little faster and have adopted some of the traits of a New Yorker. I had more of a West Coast outlook and attitude before coming here. That hasn’t completely gone away but I’ve picked up the drive and determination of a hard working East Coaster. Since living here I’ve been enveloped in a 24/hr work culture..for better or worse it has rubbed off on me. I’m going to miss New York’s unique charms. Every ethnic group has their own little patch of land in the city where you can brush against their vibrant culture that hasn’t been diminished and diluted by generations of existing in the melting pot. You can do and see just about anything here. The super-wealthy live just miles from the extremely poor. And everything is bigger and better here. The best and brightest all live here, competing with each other in the race to the top. New York is truly the center of the universe, our Rome.
I don’t regret moving here. The opportunities given to me have been immense and I feel like I’m leaving with more than what I’ve arrived with. That being said, I’m looking forward to taking a deep breath, stepping back and taking a moment to relax. I don’t think New Yorkers realize how difficult it is to live here. I think the memories of short lines, quick travel and more space have been forgotten even to me. I miss being able to see green outside my front door instead of going to Central Park. I miss having time to myself for my own artistic endeavors. I miss having time to just hang with my friends and share a beer without worrying about making my train or getting an emergency call from work.
Competitiveness is a good thing but they take it to the extreme here.
It was tough today saying farewell to people but I like to think of it more as I’ll see you soon than goodbye.
New York, I love you but the time wasn’t right for us. If I had come here in my early twenties things would be different. You would have been perfect. I mean it in all sincereness when I say it’s not you, it’s me. My time here will always be a part of me but I never truly felt like this was my home….it always felt like an extended vacation. I’ll be back to visit but my home and heart belong elsewhere. So long, New York. We’ll see each other again soon.
Posted on 09 January 2009 by D' MacKinnon
Big news everyone.
Jolene, Dresden and I are moving back to Colorado.
When I moved out here it was to take the next step in my career and to take on certain opportunities presented to me. There was also hope of getting further with our record label. New York City is a great place, I’ve learned a lot here and this was a good experience to have. I feel like it’s changed who I am and also made Jolene and I get closer to each other in our relationship. I’ve learned I’m capable of things I couldn’t have imagined 12 months ago and I feel more confident about myself. They say moving is one of the most stressful things to do next to divorce and moving here with an infant was no small task. I’m proud of what we’ve done.
That being said I feel like it’s time to move on. Since moving out here Jolene has been pretty miserable. Her and the baby were stuck in the apartment alone everyday for the most part. On the weekends we’d go and explore the city together but Monday – Friday she was pretty much by herself. Work has dominated my existence here, most days I’m gone for 10-12 hours and there have been a lot of Saturdays where I’ve worked. This has left little time for me to spend on myself, not to mention I haven’t really worked on a lick of my own music since I’ve been here. I feel like I’ve been slowly losing myself as a person. Also, we kept out house in Colorado and rented it to tenants who are now moving out. We haven’t been able to find new tenants and paying for a mortgage in Colorado and an apartment in NYC isn’t feasible. The cost of living out here is too high, between paying higher taxes and everything costing nearly double what it costs back in Colorado the increase in pay I received. I had big plans for the record label out here. I thought that being physically closer to the industry would help but it hasn’t. It’s hard to find new acts to sign when you don’t have time to ever go out. It’s hard to run a recording studio when it’s crammed into a small room in an apartment.
I miss my friends. I’ve made new friends out here but my heart is really still in Colorado. Most of the people I’m closest to still live in Colorado, they are my second family. A lot of our friends had kids or are having kids, I would love for Dresden to grow up knowing them. I think I would have stayed out here longer if we had moved here years ago, before having Dresden. After having a kid my priorities have changed, I don’t really feel the need to go clubbing 4 days a week anymore.
So that’s it. I don’t know what I’m going to do for work yet, this is kind of stressing me out. Leaving an amazing job in the middle of an economic downturn is scary but I feel that this is something I have to do. Hopefully things will work out in our favor, I have a feeling that they usually do. Just as moving out here 12 months ago was the right thing to do I feel that this is the right time to move back.
Posted on 24 March 2008 by D' MacKinnon
What a drive.
We spent my last day in Colorado doing some last minute cleaning of the house and trying to pack the car full of music gear and clothes that I hadn’t let the movers take. After jamming the car completely full except for a place for our dog Dublin and I to sit I headed out.
Posted on 11 October 2007 by D' MacKinnon
My wife and I had our first child, a baby boy, on October 1st so I’ve been out of internet contact for awhile. I have more updates to post about, they’ll be coming in the next few weeks.